Pattern of Confusion

I've been here before.  I feel lost and confused.  I feel like I'm being shoved toward a precipice and will fall off it I don't make some hard and fast decisions.  I feel a sense of urgency that is so strong…but it's not real…

The difference this time, is that I know it's not real.  I am aware, maybe not completely aware, but I am aware of what is going on here.  I was blessed.  I was blessed with an increase of spirituality and understanding of…my life and what is in store for me.  I was blessed to know and understand a little bit more about the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and how that works.  I was blessed physically, mentally, emotionally, and intellectually, and now it is time for the opposition.  It is impossible to be blessed with so much good without the opposition being allowed to have his turn.  So, here I am, in the middle of opposition, feeling sorry for myself, and doing a little wallowing.  Like I said, the difference this time, is that I know what's going on.  I know that the relentless barrage of negativity and confusion surrounding me is Satan trying to get me to second guess everything I have just received from my Heavenly Father. I know that all roads that Satan is pointing me towards are not pointing me towards "Rome," but are trying to get me to distance myself from truth and light.  I also know that part of this opposition is that, by necessity, the heavens have to be silent  during this period of time. 

I know all of that, I just don't like it. 

Okay, so they're not completely silent, but they aren't as vocal as they previously were!  I still get promptings that let me know that I am not going insane, and that I actually do know what is right, and to be patient. And I know, that though the Lord may be more silent, He has not left my side.

I guess most importantly, I know that this is part of the process, and that I will come out of it stronger and with more faith and hope than I have previously had. 

I find that more often than not, when I am going through a hard time like this, that I am not the only one. So, if you find yourself in a similar situation, maybe this will be a little beacon of hope for you…

"The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace"

or in other words

The Lord will fight for you, all you have to do is hold still

-Exodus 14:14